To my children with love

I have not really discussed my children much, but I love and miss them dearly. One day I will be reunited with them, but I am missing and will miss so much. The pain of this, I can only bare through Christ. I love you my wonderful children. I pray for you everyday. As mom and grandparents continue to spoil you, I pray that God has His way in Your hearts and lives. Even if I must wait many years to see you again, know that I am here for you. I have not left you and I will not leave you. My heart cries out for you, but I have hope and faith that God will restore what has been ripped apart.

To my daughter - I love you angel, you are perfect in every way shape and form. You are just how God made you and He will bless you and your life. I am sorry for all you must go through but know it will not last. Whatever happens, know that daddy loves you so so so much. I will never let go of you. Seek God in everything you do. Make a promise to me to go to church and obtain an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. Promise me you will remain pure. Promise me you will not let the system brainwash you. God is Love. He is Peace. His mercy and grace is there for you. Lean on Him please. Let Him be your Father in every way. He wants to be your Father/Daddy regardless. Please, promise me you will seek God with all your heart. Find a good youth group and church that loves God and teaches about the relationship and spirit of God. There is a day coming, very soon, that the young people of this world are going to take a stand in the power of the Holy Spirit and nothing, I repeat, nothing is going to get in the way of this. Seek Him my dear, seek Him with all that is in you. He will mend the hurt, take away the pain and give you peace and hope. I will always be with you, if nothing else, know that we are connected by blood and the Holy Spirit. I love you.

Although I may not get the opportunity to be there for you, know that in my heart, I am. You are perfect in my eyes, never let anyone tell you otherwise. You are a smart, wonderful, beautiful person; Remember that! If I can't be there in person for you or with you, this song is a representation of my heart and love for you. You are so special. There is only one you in this entire world. Draw near to God, if you have questions, ask; Make it a goal to go to church and to pray and to read your Bible even when you don't want to. God will bless you and your life. I love you.


To my Son - Son, I love you so very much. I feel bad for your sister that I favored you a lot of the time, but you were always so special to me. You are my boy and a precious gift from God. Both of you are so special. You are so young and impressionable still. I was looking forward to working with you this Spring and Summer on our list of projects around the house. I know you were so excited about getting to work on these with daddy. I am so sorry. You are such a sweet, well mannered boy. I pray by God's mercy I can watch you become a man. I want you to be the man of the house OK? Look after your mom and sister for me. You need to keep going to church and loving Jesus with all of your heart, mind, body and soul. He will lift you up and strengthen you where I can not.

One thing I told myself all my life was that I would be there for my wife and children. I would not let them go through what I did growing up, but I don't know if I can keep that promise any longer son. It is not by my will, but I made some bad choices at one point in my life and I am not sure of all the consequences of those choices yet. I do know our lives will never be the same. I know that I have a closeness with God that I want my family to have. Promise me you will draw close to Jesus son. Promise me. I always wanted a son and I am so very proud of you. I wish you could know how proud of you and your sister I really am. I know that God will look after you guys and see you through whatever lies ahead, but I can't tell you how easy or difficult it may be. Just trust in Him. I love you son. If for some reason I can't see you till you are a young man, know that I am with you in spirit. I will never forget or let go of any of you. If there is one thing you do for me, please, Seek Jesus with all your heart. Learn to lean on Him, trust Him and serve Him. He will take care of you. He will bless you son. I already miss the conversations we will miss, I already miss the council I could provide as you grow up. I don't want you to have to learn everything the hard way as I did son. I wanted so much to be there for you and be your anchor, I am so sorry. I love you so very much. I will do what I can to remain a part of your lives. If all else fails, we will see each other again on the other side. I love you so so so much. I thank God for all of you daily.


Prayer:
Oh dear heavenly Father, I come to you right now with a heavy heart. I have been so blessed by my children. I am so proud of them. It is difficult for me to be forced to let go of them. You know that I can not do that. I know I have made mistakes as a husband and father Lord; I know I am not a perfect person, but no one is. I have failed in so many ways yet outside of those failures, I was always a good husband and father. I would then and still today lay down my life for my family. Any of them. It hurts to think I may not get the chance to see them grow up. The chance to participate in any of their lives. This alone is far more difficult for me than any prison or jail time I could ever receive. Please Lord, bless my little ones. Hold them in Your arms. Be a Father to them where I can not. I know I had to learn to lean on You growing up but I did a lot on my own and learned a lot of lessons the hard way. My plan was to raise my children after Your heart Lord. I think we were making headway there but other problems arose. I just want to pray for them right now God, let them know that I love them. Let them know you are there for them. Let them know that I will never, by choice, leave them. Help them not to have bitterness, fault or blame. Help them their mother to stay focused on You. Bless her financially and spiritually. She needs to be twice as strong right now God. I love her and my children so very much. Please God, give them strength. Soften my children's heart for You Lord. Place a calling on their lives in ministry to you. Help them to focus on what is really important in life, You and the kingdom to come. Oh God, protect my family. I will pray for them every day for the rest of my life. They will always be with me no matter what. I love you children, I love you my wife.